Finding things hard..

Hey everyone, hope you’ve all had an awesome day! So I’ve had a rough month, being injured twice at work and recently in hospital due to another problem where I got a head injury. I’ve been off sick the last few days and honestly I feel constantly confused and my headaches are terrible.. I guess I don’t have much confidence in my job, I find work hard and being quite new it’s difficult.

I guess I’m not in the right place to do anything at the moment, I don’t feel like working out anymore, I eat crap and frankly i’ve lost all interest in any sports.. I’m still playing rugby, and recently getting back in to a new team… but who knows how long that will last. I just feel I need to lock myself away in my room every night and just listen to music.

I’ve kind of stopped caring what others think about me, and I find myself caring less and less with normal daily conversations. I feel like my emotionless at the moment. I feel less and less to hang out with my friends, why I don’t know.

I’m going to quietly get back to trying to train, I don’t need anymore distractions in my life anymore.

Paranoia with ADHD.

You know, when I think about it, I may sometimes be paranoid and a little worried..  but I’m not going to beat around the bush that I’m the guy people kinda like, but he’s still an idiot. The young guy.. the guy who’s new and knows nothing.. yeah I’m him.

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